my heart is crying out for this boy name brandon and i really need someone to save me he was like my one and only like i had others before and after but he was my one i have been likeing him for like 5years before it really popped him off i really devoted my heart to him give him anything but after the summer was over he left and went back to school 6hours away and like 3weeks ago he droped a boom on me he told me he was talking to this girl over the summer and when he went back to school he made this girl his girlfriend i was like what about me what happen to us were did we go wrong im still hurting and i really need somebody to come and save me because i still call and tell him i love him like nothing ever happen so i real need someone to save me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my heart is crying out for this boy name phillip and i really like him i and i wrote him a letter telling him this and asking him if he would go out with me and he didn't write back it is really hard b/c i go to SWHS and he just started at UNC-......so yeah i see him sometymes on the week end but that is it he use to call me and ask me to go to his house and hang out with him and his brother and then he just stopped an dwell i seen him the other dady but he did saay nething to me ...so i was like hey phillip and he said whats up and then i walked off and then i went back to the house he was at and was like phillip come herre and that is when i gave him the letter i wrote him and so my heart is CRYING OUT FOR YOU PHILLIP!!!!!!!!!AND ALL I WANT TO SAY IS I LOVE YOU PHILLIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My family was good until my father took a turn for something worse. This situation cause my family to split. My father had a problem that some of the people in America battle with everday drug addiction. My sisters, brothers, and I had to grow up without our father being there but we manage with the help of GOD and our mother. She is the greatest mom and woman in this world. Mario, I understand that we as people have shared some of the same experience in life like you. The thing that helps us the most is GOD and the support of family and true friends. My heart cries out for my mother, my siblings and most of all my father because he still haven't won the battle of this addiction that is trying to take his life but i know with help of GOD and family he will one day so,I say a prayer for my father, others who are going through this experience, and my familly to hold on, have faith and keep believing.

My hearts Crying out for this dude name Justin Moore. I would want to say he had me at Hello, but thats not the case. We were just friends at one point of time because, I always thought of him not a so-caring person but he really changed my mind on that note. But once we started talking I could see that he was really a nice person. He was like the only person as in a boy that i could go an talk to and understand me. We got to a point were we started hanging out but at that time I was in a real bad relationship an i had feelings for that person, but at the same time my feelings for Justin were getting stronger the more we hung out, so then i got so confused but i knew i wanted him but I didnt want to hurt the other dude because his feelings for me we crazy, but then Justin left me an went to Wisconsin, an now that im not with that person my heart aches day after day just to be with Justin, I mean we talk and everything, but he has a issue an he doesn't want me to get hurt by that but day after it hurts because I want him so much. My hearts crying out for him because i was there when things were bad but it seems that all that doesn't even matter .

Mu family is going thur alot right now Uncle is an alcholch and he is now homeless leaving in the freakin street. and it makes me want to breakdown and cry. I cried so many nights. Because I wonder where in the world could my uncle be. And it's like he doesn't even care that he is putting our family in so much pain. It's hard as hell to him like that. He at least use to come around once in a while but he hasn't even been around since June. I remember when we took him to the hospital because he got into a fight on the train & he was drunk as hell. They robbed him. He has bruises on his face. He was trying to hit on me.Kept on give me compliments. And I was a little affraid because he was crazy drunk that night. and my grandfather is so damn selffish to see that his son needs help. I will never forget tthis one time when my uncle came around and asked my grandfather if he can live with him just until he's on his feet. And my grandfather said NO. Then that's when everything started up all over again. I still think about it. So this is who my hearts crys out for all the time. and aNow my uncle is worst. and Now I worried that i will homeles because I am moving soon. But don't know where.

My Heart Crys Out For U so much because I love u so damn much. I have dreams that I got to meet u in person. I still have hope that I will meet u or something. I love everything about u. I mean come on u are so humble, smart, gentle. U don't disrespect anyone. I love how don't let drama get to u. and u don't hate on anyone. U are special to me. Mario when I hear u songs on the radio I start to scream and tears come out of my eyes. I was so touched when I was watching ur documentary.I watched it again last night. U are always on my mind.I pray for all the time. Mario U are just so , cool , calm, collective. U have great creative skills, U are always postive no matter what. U are a good actor. When I hear that are in NYC I am either there or watching u on T.V. I remember when u came out with Just A friend , I like who is the cutie, Was Like yeah I got meet him. And from then on I have been ur fan, I went to see u perform at the Scream Tour I was only 12 or 13 years old then.Because me and u are only 1year apart from each other., U was born on 11-27-1986 & I was born on 11-14-1987. U make me smile when I am at my worse point. Or if i got to an agrument with my friend.U Make want to have a guy like u. But If there was a magic genie I would tell them to grant me a wish to go meet u in person. So mario I just wanted to write this to u. This is real as a heart attack. I am not just saying this just because I want to win. I am expressing what I feel inside to u. But If I win It would be cool, but if not I still will be ur fan, nothing will change that. I rermeber when I saw u on TRL on 10-18-07. luv ur friend, fan & Wifey Erika From Queens NY And i wish ur mom's the best with everything.

The reason my heart is crying out for worl peace is because life is to short for the wars and depression that is taking place on this earth.

Ever since I was 13 years old, I am now 21, I been crushing on this guy name Derrick! He is my first crush ever, and the first guy I slow danced with. He was always a gentleman to me, never once thought I was a nerd or was ever mean towards me. I been in and out of relationships, through them all i always thought about him, what it would be like to be his girl. He left to a different high school when I was 14. We kind of kept in touch since, and I really dont think he knows how much I really like him. We actually recently started talking and its been a relief to know where hes at and that he still cares. This dude seriously has my heart, I would do anything for him, he's to sweet to pass up. Everytime we lose touch...we always end up finding each other or I always end up finding him, LOL. I wouldnt say I love him...but I really care about him. I really feel like he's the one. My heart is definetly crying out for him!

My whole life was a struggle. Having to deal with living with family memember, then a shelter,then back to living with family. Now my mother and I finally have an apartment of our own. I have an older brother who has been in and out of jail since he was 13, now he is 19 and still in there. My older sister dropped out of middle school and had my niece. Now she is trying to get her GED. My mother also dropped out of high school because she got pregnant with my sister and got her GED. My "father" denined being my father when I was int the 4th grade, eventhough of his 6 children, I look the most like him. I don't get anything for my birthday from my "father" because he doesn't care, an nothing from my mother because she can afford it. Right now I am in my senoir year in high school, 17 years old, goin to church, looking for a job,and the captain of the cheerleading squad. No one cannot tell me that I'm not going to make it out of this world being somebody and making a difference. I AM going to graduate from high school in May and I will be going to college, the first in my family. So, I am crying out to you to let you know that evryone has to struggle for success and you did it even with the things that you are going throug with your mother. Now I really look up to you and I believe that I can do it also!!

~Thank You
LaSharia M. Smith

My heart is crying out for a boy I knew for a while well 5 years. I met him when he ran to catch the bus, and I was wondering who is this big headed boy late getting on the bus. I thought he was like a player or something but I got to know him and we hooked up. No one, liked him though until I started dating him which was really weird but now all the girls want him but he loves me and my heart crys out for him because he treats me like a angel, and he is a caring guy. He's a good one and a keeper. So, I guess one day we started talking and we connected. Now, as the time grew we came closer and closer and fell in love with each other. In my heart, I feel there's no other person out there that completes me like he does. It was very hard to tell him how much I loved him so my friend said part of it for me and then he was like is that true, and I say yes and explained the rest. We knew how much we liked each other but he had stronger feelings but I don't believe he was willing to tell me at the time, but I didn't know that and I felt the same way. So, I took a day and told him how I felt, and he said he felt the same way about me and we should be like soulmates or just make it last forever. We broke up but we couldn't stay apart so now we are back together. During that time we were apart my heart felt broke, I actually prayed and everything, listened to music to calm me down, and just chill with my friends. But, it's all great now we are in love with each other and my heart crys out for him and it all ways will even if we are not together and he said the same thing.....This boy/man I should say is named Dominic!

I know people go through struggles everyday of their life, but I can't be this unlucky. I admit I'm very fortunate to have a family that loves me, but I'm tired. In the fall of 2005, my family was put out of our house. So that year I left my friends, and me, my mother and father, and 3 older brothers had to move in with my aunt and uncle. Me, my mother, and my father stayed with my aunt and cousin in their 2 bedroom apartment and my 3 brothers stayed with my uncle in his 1 bedroom. It was very cramped in the apartments. In April of 2007, we got back on our feet and moved into an apartment. By this time my 2 oldest brothers were in college, so we only needed a 3 bedroom apartment. Everything seemed to be going so well. A bed to sleep in after a year on a floor and a restored family came with this.Things took a turn on a very unlucky day in September. I was walking home from school, in the rain, and I saw my uncle's car in my driveway and my mom was in there with him. She told me to get in. We got there and she told me that the sheriff's county came to our house and put her out. They said we were 4 months behind on rent. She kept crying but I told her everything would be alright. This caused them to separate for the 1st time ever in 20 years of marriage. I just keep praying that we'll be alright. This has also caused my mother to drink more heavily and I'm scared for her. I've learned to be strong for my family because of this. I miss having my dad around because he's living with my grandma now. I'm going to keep my faith because that's what counts.

I HAVE BEEN IN RELATIONSHIPS IN MY LIFE AND EVERY RELATIONSHIP I GET INTO I ALWAYS GET MY FEELINGS HURT. IT'S NOT LIKE IM A BAD GIRLFRIEND BUT IT ALWAYS ME AND IM JUST LOOKING FOR THAT RIGHT PERSON. I THINK I FOUND HIM BUT I DONT KNOW. I BEEN WITH THIS PERSON FOR TWO YEARS AND WE BEEN THROUGH A LOT TOGETHER. EVERYTHING STARTED OUT GOOD THEN STUFF THINGS STARTED HAPPENING. HE CHEATED A COUPLE TIMES AND I FORGAVE HIM BECAUSE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND WE BEEN THROUGH A LOT, HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN HERE FOR ME. WHEN MY UNCLE HAD DIED HE WAS HERE FOR ME, WHEN MY NEICE HAD DIED AT ONLY ONE WEEK OLD HE WAS THERE WITH ME AND MY FAMILY, WHEN MY HOUSE BURNED DOWN HE WAS HERE FOR ME AND HE STUCK BY ME. BUT THEN WE BROKE UP AND WENT BACK OUT. EARLEIR THIS YEAR. SO WE WERE GOOD FOR A MINUTE AND THEN HE ASK ME TO MARRY HIM AND I SAID YES. THEN HE TELLS ME HE STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIS EX AND I WAS VERY TORN AND HURT BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO GET HURT AGAIN. SO NOW HE STILL TALKS TO HER AND STUFF AND HE TRYING TO GET OVER HER. SO IM NOT GETTING MARRIED AT ALL. MY HEART IS CRYING OUT FOR HIM BECAUSE HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE SINCE DAY ONE, HE ALWAYS COMFORT ME NO MATTER WHAT, EVEN THOUGH HE DID WHATEVA I STILL LOVE HIM, I JUS WANT HIM TO SEE I REALLY CARE BOUT HIM. I HAVE BEEN THROUGH A LOT IN MY LIFE AND HAVE LEARNED A LOT AND HAVE ALWAYS PUT GOD FIRST. I HOPE I JUST FIND THAT RIGHT ONE OR HE MIGHT BE THAT RIGHT ONE. MY HEART IS CRYING OUT FOR HIM. BUT WHEN I HERE THE SONG CRYING OUT FOR ME IT REMINDS ME OF HIM ALL THE TIME BUT IT MAKES ME HAPPY BECAUSE I HERE YOUR VOICE MARIO.I LISTEN TO ONE OF YOUR SONGS EVERY NIGHT IT DONT MATTER WHICH ONE JUST TO HERE YOUR VOICE SO I HOPE I FIND THAT RIGHT ONE!!!!!!!
THAS WHO IM CRYING OUT FOR IS THAT PERSON AND YOU MARIO.

You know, I've been through quite a lot in my life. When I was five years old, I was almost abducted from right inside my own yard. When I was ten, I was betrayed by a male friend of mine who was 12 at the time and a year ago I was an emotional wreck, going through a bad state of emotional turmoil and fighting a battle with myself but somehow I managed to pull through it. Then I got the heart-breaking news that there were lies in my family but I keep strong and dealt with it. But there has always been something that had much more of an effect on me than any of the battles that I have fought in my life. Some may not believe me, maybe you won't even believe me but you are the person my heart cries out for the most. It has always been my dream that I would be able to one day in my life meet you in person and be able to see the man that has inspired me for the most part of my life. I've only seen you on stage once (as I live in South Africa) and that was the single most influencial moment of my life because it proved to me that dreams really can come true. Even though I cried through most of your performance, I enjoyed it thoroughly and will never forget it, ever. Everytime I see a music video of yours, it completely silences me as I sit in awe and watch. Everytime I hear a song of yours for the first time or see one of your videos for the first time, I cry. It's strange I know but it's a natural occurence. I may have never seen the interview on TV but I read the article and I cried for you because even though I have no idea what you are going through, my heart is still with you. I hope that you get to read this and at least take it into consideration. Whatever happens I just want you to know that you have a life-long fan here for you and I would like to say thank you for giving me strength even when it seems non-existent.

Yours Faithfully
Cindy

Mario, I have been crying out for you...I love your voice and since your documentary; I feel like I know you even more than before. I would LOVE for you to call me so here is my story...
My boyfriend and I have been together for 5 yrs (in Nov.). I was very apprehensive in the beginning of the relationship because things moved really fast. We became so close and I was getting afraid that he wasnt all that serious. He would tell me that "Im the one", "I want to marry you", he would say this to me alot. We fell in love and have been together since the first time we met. I even moved from Tampa to Miami just to be with him. Throughout the 5 yrs we have had some problems but we have never split up or denied still being in love. He still tells me that he wants to get married but I want to know when!!! He never has an answer! We have been to Europe, Jamaica, Grand Cayman, and other trips that made me think I would get a proposal there. No proposal. It hurts me because I know we love each other and can go through turmoil in our relationship and bounce back. We have been through so much and we still recover. I will say there has never been any cheating on either part. That is something I WONT deal with. I just dont know what the hold up is. Its not as if we are to young...I am 29 and he is 40. It really kills me because I dont understand how he could be so into me and being with me but wont make that final commitment. I have given up many dating opportunities but sometimes I feel like I am waiting for nothing. I am not putting pressure on him I am just wanting him to keep a promise HE has made. I never brought it up he did. He started the whole married talk so why after 5 yrs have I not even received a ring? Sometimes I think maybe this is it...maybe its not suppose to happen. I really want things to move forward and dont want to wait another 5 yrs. I do love him and he loves me. My heart breaks after all this time because I want more of an investment so-to-speak.

HI MARIO, I'VE BEEN A FAN OF URS FOR ABOUT 4 YEARS. I'M ITALIAN AND I LOVE UR SONGS SOO MUCH I REALLY LOVE MOST OF UR LYRICS. ALL I WANT IS TO GET A CALL FROM U, THAT WOULD BE THE BEST THING THAT COULD EVER HAPPEN TO ME SO PLSSSSSS CAL ME.

YES i`m crying out for you baby and I really love your music and I wish all the best in the world and I really need that call from you!!!

I took a real long thought about who i am crying out for, and i came up with the perfect person... My Aunt Janell. the reason why my heart is crying out for her, is for the simple fact that she is struggling with the disease that is well-known in my city and state, Baltimore, Maryland. Now, my aunt and I were very close when I was growing up. As a matter of fact we are 9 years apart. Ive just turned 20 as of october the 23rd, and i found out on my birthday that my aunt is in jail for 20-40 years. After getting that news that really broke my heart.For the simple fact that i remember her for how she use to be (without using drugs) and now to see her its like what in the heck happened. She was someone that i looked up too, she was a person that i always went to when ever my mother would get on my nerves lol...My aunt was my inspiration. She's the one that got me hooked on to singing and doing talent shows, and writing poetry. When i do talent shows and always i look out in the audience and i look for her face, it hits that she isnt the same person that i use to run too. The drugs that she is on are hereby followed: Heroin, crack, weed, method,. Just to name a few.Its hard for me to think about it for the simple fact that i know that shes not the same person. all that she is worried about is getting her "next fix".Janell is someone that can do well but she just cant because the drugs have her in another state of mind. I just cant get over the fact that my aunt is struggling with the disease.. There is my story

First of all, I’m not writing this to for you to feel sorry, and I’m not writing this because it’s the truth. I am writing this because I have to. Well here it goes.
At the age of two, I lost my innocence. My father was so jealous of me and my mother that he decided that he would take fate into his own hands. He believed that burning and molesting me was the best solution. He nearly killed me and for that he only served eight months in prison. My mother has suffered a lot of tribulations in her life. She was forced to defend and live on her own at the tender age of thirteen. When she was eighteen she got pregnant by my father and because she was living in the streets she had no money to abort. She also didn’t have any money to go the doctor and therefore she had rubella which was contracted to my brother. He was born with autism and soon to be mentally disabled. She was forced to give her child up to my godmother. Then three years later she had me.
We had a hard time living. She was stressed out all the times and resulted to smoking and drinking. Although she forced herself to quit smoking, her drinking was only suppressed. Every time she was get stress, she would beat me and bruise me up and then go in her room and close the door and drink. I didn’t understand why she did hit me but I knew that she was feeling depressed and hopeless at times. I would cry at night just hoping that someone would save me from the pain she was causing me and most importantly, that someone would save her before it was too late. At times, I tried to use my music and writing as a way to escape the pain but it never did work. I felt like I was always crying out for her.
(Fast forward.)
Well, in 2005 she got married and that crushed me because she was looking for happiness without realizing what was best for her and also me. She left me at my godmother’s house to get married and didn’t come back to get me. I couldn’t understand how she could find her happiness and leave. I was supposed to be the one that she love and I was mad her for not crying out for me. Instead, she cried out for the love of a man. I was devastated.
Well, life went on and I spent the remainder of my high school years with my godmother and her twelve adoptive children. I felt miserable and stressed out. One day, my godmother told me why my mother act the way she did. She explained to me that she was bipolar and suffered with paranoia. Things started to make sense.
(Fast forward again.)
Last week, I found out that my mother and her husband were through. She was struggling to support herself and began to get sicker. I found out that she has hypertension and she is so stressed that her hair is falling out. She takes so many pills and if she doesn’t keep her stress levels down she can have a stroke or worse. So for my birthday, I sacrificed my time and spent the day with her. I made her so happy and I can tell that this is what she was crying for all along. She needs me to take care of her and to make that step to get her better. I swallowed my pride and forgave her for what she had done to me in the past and cherished every moment that I had with her that weekend. So, who am I crying out to? I’m crying out to my mother and hoping that maybe all that I contributed to satisfy her needs, she will give back to me the love that I deserve. I will just end this quote from my song entitled “Burned by the fire”, it states: “some say that all that you do will pay off, and hurt by the fire they say you will burn, as I close my eyes and I dream, I feel myself crying out for—she.”

please pick me, but if you don’t just here my story.

There is a lot of things I want but I do not have them. The main thing I'm crying out for right now is my sanity!! I have so much on my plate right now and i just want it all to be over. I always get stuck into situations that i can barely handle but I'm expected to solve them and make everything better again. Other than my personal issues I'm good I'm still alive so i really can't complain. Mario if you just happen to read this comment Hello and good luck with everything and tell your mom to keep moving forward and take it one day at a time.

Sincerely,
a fan by the name of key key
(Rochester NY)

HEY MARIO, I AM YOUR #1 FAN AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I AM PRAYING THAT EVERYTHING GO OK FOR YOU AND YOUR MOTHER. YOU ARE TRUELY BLESSED WHETHER YOU RELAIZE IT OR NOT. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU HAVE MY FULL AND LOVING PRAYERS AND SUPPORT. THROUGH EVER BAD SITUATION THERE IS ALWAYS A GOOD OUTCOME. YOU ARE PROOF THAT TYOU CAN ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING THROUGH ANY SITUATION AS LONG AS IT'S THROUGH JESUS CHRIST. I WANT TO BE A SINGER BUT THAT MIGHT NOT HAPPEN WITH ME, BUT YOU ARE BLESSED TO BE THERE ALREADY AND AT A VERY YOUNG AGE. YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING YOU HAVE AND WORKED SO HARD TO GET. I HAVE NEVER SAW ANYONE AS DETERMINED AS YOU, YES YOU HAVE MADE SOME BAD CHOICES BUT YOU GOT BACK UP ON YOUR FEET THE RIGHT WAY AND LOOK AT RESULTS!! YOU INSPIRE PEOPLE SUCH AS MYSELF TO STRIVE FOR THE BEST ALWAYS. SO REMEMBER THIS FROM YOUR #1 FAN!!

LOVE YA!!!!!!!!

My heart is crying out for my father because when i was three years old my mother divorced my dad because he turned into a alcoholic and walked away from my mother and I. I didn't see my dad again til i was 13, then didn't see him again til I was 19.(I'm now 21) And it crazy cause i'm from Oakland,Ca and I went all the way to Alanta, Ga to see him and and I couldn't even stay with him at his house, so instead I stayed at a motel. I was out there for 2 days already, I didn't see him til the third night and that was only for 20 minutes. I am just so hurt cause it seems like my dad loves his alcohol more than me but i know thats not the case, he just has a problem. Since the time I went to go visit him I haven't heard from him since. I just hope he's ok. So dad if you just so happen to read this just know that I LOVE YOU and hope all is well.

MY HEART CRIES OUT TO ALL OF THE STORIES THAT ARE POSTED UP HERE ON THIS SITE. I HAVE READ ALL OF THEM AND IT SADDENS ME TO KNOW HOW MUCH BURDEN, OUR YOUTH HAS TO CARRY. AS I WAS GROWING UP IN THE 80'S, I DON'T REMEMBER EVER DEALING WITH SUCH HORRIFIC TRAGEDIES. HEARTS WERE NOT THAT COLD! I REALLY FEEL SORRY FOR OUR FUTURE! MARIO, TO BE HONEST, BECAUSE OF OUR AGE DIFFERENCE, I WAS NEVER A BIG FAN OF YOURS, UNTIL I SEEN YOUR MTV DOCUMENTARY. YOU HAVE EARNED A NEW RESPECT FROM ME AS A ARTIST AND A SON! I AM A MOTHER OF A 3YEAR OLD AND I WAS JUST FLOORED ON HOW MUCH YOU CARED ENOUGH OF YOUR MOTHER TO WANT TO HELP HER, INSTEAD OF LETTING HER FALL BY THE WAYSIDE. I KNOW THAT THERE IS MORE THAT WE DIDN'T SEE, BECAUSE WHEN YOU READ THE LETTER, YOU SAID," THIS IS COMING FORM ME!" THEN I JUST WANTED TO DIE, WHEN SHE ASKED FOR MONEY TO GET THAT LAST HIT. SHE REALLY PUT YOU BETWEEN A ROCK AND A HARD PLACE! MARIO, YOU SAID,"YOU WILL NOT LOVE YOUR MOTHER TO DEATH" SO THAT MEANS NOW YOU HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO SAY "NO!" EVEN TO YOUR MOTHER!! MY GRANDMOTHER SMOKES ABOUT A PACK A DAY OF CIGERETTS. WHEN SHE NEEDS ME TO GO TO THE STORE, I REFUSE TO BUY HER CIGERETTS, BECAUSE IF SOMETHING EVER HAPPENS TO HER, I DO NOT WANT TO BE HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR CONTRIBUTING TO HER ILLNESS OR DEATH!! MARIO, I WILL KEEP YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IN MY PRAYERS AS WELL AS ALL OF THOSE WHO ARE EXPERIENCING A EMOTIONAL OR PHYSICAL SITUATION!! MAY GOD BE WITH YOU!! PEACE

My famliy is sumthin i never had. my mom an dad r on drugs my mom is locked up my dad stay in the same city as me and he dont even talk 2 ive been on my own since i was 13teen and im still in the struggle im stayin from house 2 house tryin to get stable my dad is out there doin drugs dont even care for his youngest daughter my mom all she do is lie and hoe the corners and do drugs everyday i wake up hopein to see her but it never happens but i still love them no matter
wat happens drugs have been in my family for a long tlme but there r people out there who is havin bigger problems then i am thats y i dont waist my time sitin around waitin for there because
when there ready they will be here all i can do is pray and wait for his anwser.

through time there are obstacles some that block you and some that pushes you, and through your years from birth to your teen ages you find out what’s wrong and what not .some things make you mad and some things make you hold things in but here I think its my time to cry it out and let the world no who ive have kept in my heart since I been born to now, I am crying out to two things that’s in ma soul and heart.

first I have to say I read all the post and stories on a lot of people life and some mad me sad and some mad me cry because I can relate to them easy and I just have to say to every one that wrote on there own life story "keep you head up and stay strong"

Through out my life I had people in and out of my life .some I didn’t wont to go and some that had to, not because of some thing bad but because GOD said it was. I never had a chance to cry it out for every body I know or I loved but today I will let it out and tell yell who im crying out for...

All my life I had the chance to understand the world a little bit, most thing I cant change because GOD do it for us. the first person I will talk about is a grate man I ever met ,the amazing part of my heart and ma life and that person is ma grandpa ,I love ma grand dad he was fun to be with and always fun to talk to. My grandma use to always tell us we made a grate team even if it was just drawing to hand picture on the wall. We use to go everywhere and see a lot of things I didn’t even know how to spell but to be there with my grand pa was just all I needed. he was the one I always ran to for every thing ,I always run straight to my grandma house after school from pre-k all the way up to 4th grade, I never really mind about going home right after school .till I got in the 6th grade I ran to ma grandma house one day after school and he wasn’t there .when I got there ma whole family was looking at me like if they should or shouldn’t tell me what happened all they said was "it will be alright" I never really known what they was talking about. My grandpa was in the hospital every day till they kept him .I ran to the hospital every day but it didn’t work because he was getting sicker and sicker .I never really knew why he was taking so much Medicine. And he never did all that in front of me .he was hiding something from my family and I. we found he was a alcoholic, he smoke a lot of things that messed up his body, and not only that but he also did a lot of other things. it got me confusesed.my grandpa got to sick and with his age they sent him to a old folks home to take care of him. Theses people didn’t take care of my grandfather, all the said was he sick he was going too died anyways. How could they say that, they just watched him get sicker and sicker and gave him every thing he use to take be for he got there for his lunch and breakfast. they didn’t care .till one day ma grandma seen him in pain not know it was because all they gave him so she decided it would be good if he was with GOD, So she pulled the plug on him which had me dieing I cried for three days straight I didn’t have a grandfather any more. a week after that during the funeral I didn’t talk to know one I felt like I couldn’t speak all I did was cry I watch him in a casket a all black one and it remained me of every thing we did as if it was a slide show and the more things I remember it just had me cry harder. my whole family changed after that as if it was a turning point in there life ,they all acted strange and I felt like I could be with them anymore because they thought it was ok to me it wasn’t. I really miss him with all my heart and all i want is my grandfather back

R.I.P
GRAND PA
I MISS YOU

the next group of people im crying out for is my family .not only that I live in the ghetto with shooting and seeing people die every day or beat up I also see alt of drugs and people smoking ,or selling it ,and drinking every alcohol name in the book. And half of that is my family, I have people in my family in and out of jail because of drugs or geting caught with it . I never really had a older brother because since ive been little he whent to jail for being in a gang,doing drugs,smoking ,drinking and the jail made it a home for him ,and ma mom(o shes a good indapendent woman and i love her ) but some time i think she is doin to much to take care of the family,ma older sister dont do drugs but she smokes alot .my twin she fight alot .im not a fighter i dont do drug or nothin just a good person trying to achieve my goals and dreams .but to see my family stuggel on alot and cant provide for me and my twin as well as the younger ones in my whole family . and ma dad i really dont know him like dat i mean hes in my life but i never see him as much as a dad suppose to be there for his child.im like the only one dats doing good, and just like you said mario "there only one way to do right" i will stay with my family and help them one by one if i have to and change this.most of ma family need a change and we need to do this write.

so im crying out to 2 things my grandfather life ,wishing it was still on this earth and ma family back.

it always good to help what bad in your family even if its an addiction because once they get better it will be over. but not only that but a turning point . so to every one who whent through some thing bad like i said keep strong .and to the other post that after min good luck in the compation .and i end it here with who im crying out to.......

-shanell s. -

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babygurrl_404

Well, mario, 2 b honest I tried 2 think o a person dat ma heart cries out 2 but I couldn't find anyone. But all d same I wud really lyk it if u gave me a call cos I'm a huge fan n I really lyk u, ur voice, ur personality. I also wanna say dat I hope ur mom gets better n u guys start up a beta life together cos I can c how much it hurts u n everthin. k, take care.

Hi mario I never did this before entering a contest in stuff but I'm doing something different. well as you see I'm one of your fans not a number one fan because I know you have alot of those but I'm just a fan who love your music. but anywayz I'm crying out for my family & my heart in my family theres seven of us my Dad and Mom an which they have four girls I'm the fourth girl and my little brother well not so little brother. my Dad have two jobs providing for his kids and the bills which I know he tired and stress out on the bills and stuff so I barley see him anymore but I understand the cause. an it's hurts to see him the way He is when I do see him. An theres my mom who struggles with her little small business while my three sister's in tallahassee going to college and me who just graduated high school going to college soon in janaury and my brother who started high school. Well I'm not trying to tell you my life story or what not but this mean alot to me my family is poor not poor poor we can afford things in a budget and stuff we have a house things in it and stuff but not to that point that we don't have nothing it's a struggle for my family trying to make it in life. even as being Haitien alot of people have there criticisim about our culture but we don't listen to all that ignorance we don't let that take our pride and dignity. I feel that god have something special for us in the future but we got to wait and be paitent. we can not let the world consume us that's why we still here to please god and honors those who we love. God didn't let my family fall he keep us to gether but being in the situation that I am it hurts and it really get to my heart I want to help my family they apart of me if they fall I fall they the only family I got so I determined in life to become who want to be in life being a young lady and determined to live a dream and share with my love one. I can not let this world take a toll on me for if i do the devil won and I lost and I can't allow that god love me so much I don't think he want me to lose the fight. god sacrifice so much he not gonna let me fall and won't even abandon me. in the bible it's say we not apart of this world we just live in it we only here for the time being but we won't live like this for the time being but we live like this because of are sins but not forever we live like this but only if we ask god to forgive are sin and accept him into our hearts for we will be saved and when we die he will reward us in heaven. I know I'm not prefect I say things and do things that I really regret but know one is perfect that why I ask forgiveness. for I know I won't live like this lifestyle forever because god have something special waiting for me in the future but if god don't theres a reason if it do i'll wait till it happens. I'm just a seed waiting to bloom as a flower but the mean time I pray for my family and my heart and wait for a better life in this world. no matter what situation is I'm still blessed & thankful and don't take things for granted.

HEY MARIO!!! HONESTLY MY HEART IS CONSTANTLY CRYING OUT FOR GOD. I LOVE GOD WITH ALL MY HEART AND I DESIRE THE JOY AND PEACE OF HEAVEN. ONE DREAM MY HEART IS CRYING OUT FOR IS YOU, I HAVE DREAMS OF ATLEAST MEETING YOU ONE DAY. I PRAY THAT ONE DAY, JUST ONE THAT I CAN MEET YOU IN PERSON AND GET A SIMPLE HUG. YOU ARE SO AMAZING AND INSPIRING TO ME AND LIVING IN THE TOWN THAT I LIVE IN OPPORTUNITIES ARE ONE IN A MILLION!!! THIS TOWN IS HAS NOTHING AND I WONDER IF I WILL EVER BE GOOD ENOUGH TO MAKE IT OUT OF HERE AND BE SOMEWHERE THAT OPPORTUNITIES COME FOR A SPIRITUAL PERSON LIKE MYSELF. I AM KNOWN AS A NOBODY MOST OF THE TIME, BUT I WANNA FEEL LIKE I AM SOMEBODY. MARIO IF I COULD JUST SEE YOU AND TALK TO YOU 1 TIME, THAT WOULD LAST A LIFE TIME. IF I COULD JUST BE THAT SPECIAL GIRL FROM PORT ARTHUR, TEXAS THAT ACTUALLY HAD A DREAM TO BECOME A REALITY, I WOULD FEEL TRUELY BLESSED TO KNOW THAT THE ARTIST I HAVE SUPPORTED ALL THESE YEARS, SPENT MOST OF MY MONEY ONE, AND LISTEN TO 24/7, AND MOST IMPROTANTLY HAD ALL THIS GODLY LOVE AND PRAYERS I HAVE HAD WOULD ONE DAY PAY OFF IN A WAY I WOULD HAVE NEVER EXPECTED. YOU HAVE HAD A GREAT IMPACT ON MY LIFE, SO PLEASE MARIO!!!!!!!!! BE THE BLESSING THAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR ALL THIS TIME TO ACTUALLY MEET, ANSWER MY PRAYER.

LOVE YA!!!!!!!!!

Hey what’s sup Mario this is for your contest. The person I’m crying out for is my sister. I am 12 years old and I am a huge fan. I will buy your CD when I get money. But anyways let me not get off track I am crying out for her cuz everybody makes fun of her she let them push her around she says she doesn’t care but I can see the pain in her face, I want to help her but I have no advice to give, but when I’m mad at her I become one of those person so even if I don’t win this contest can I still talk 2 you I really need some advice. I need some advice so I don’t become on of those people. I really would like 2 talk 2 u. I luv my sister a lot I just want her to know I care for her.
Luv Amaryah Combs
Your # 1 fan

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AMARYAH AKA MARIO#1FAN4EVA

.What a pity boy i am, i am really uncomfortable today and i do not know why it happened, something definitely happened to me today. I can not calm my mood down today and i do not know when it started. i heard a one song this morning, the song is really sad and make me can not help myself calming down. Singer is Mario he is a quite famous love song singer in US. Something happend to me

i have already heard 3 songs from him, 2 of them are really the love song because both songs are describing how deep mario loves the girl, but unfortunately he still can not get her loveness. LET ME LOVE YOU -- it is a really good love song, when i am listening to this song i think i can understand how hurt Mario may feel when he directly sees the girl he loves is hugging to her boyfriend. It is just like the lyric said: "Baby I just don't get it, Do you enjoy being hurt? You don't believe his stories, You know that they're all lies, Bad as you are ,you stick around and I just don't know why". I think that nobody want to see the circumstance like this, how many people can handle this? i don't know at all and i don't wanna know it. In myself opinion i can say i can't. therefore i will try my best to avoid this circumstance happen to my life, because it''s realy hurt, i love her but she loves somebody else, but the worst thing is i know she loves me as well, even though it is just a little bit..whether i should try to let her choose me instead or just leave her away? i don't know i really don't know. There are differet decisions in different people, let them solve their problem, that's not my business.

"You should let me love you, Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need." i think most of people can understand what it means. That's true, who don't want your otherside only love you and 4eva. if anyone loves the girl but she's already have boyfriend, i recommend to listen to this song, it might give you some help. Following is the movieclip of the song, hope every1 likes it.

Click here to watch

The second song is HOW COULD YOU. Yeah this is the song i heard this morning, it let me remember something that i don't wanna remember 4eva. My reaction was quite huge, my blood was boiling and my mood was going mad. i couldn't control myself, i was tangling, suffering and shaking. How can only a song let me crazy? i don't know, i even don't wanna know the true. however, as matter of fact i've already known the answer. it make me remember someone who i thought i've already forgot. Unfortunately i didn't and i think i will never forget her in my life. We used to deeply love each other and we would never think we will break, but the truth is we broke up and didn't see each other for long time. Since the third people intervened our life, she had changed more and more obvious, day by day our contradiction became deeper and deeper. at last we broke up. this was a circumstance that i never want to meet but i had and i past. i've seen the MTV of this song as well, i understand what this MTV describe all about. i can feel the convulsion when Mario heard about his girl friend has another boy friend from his friends. What can i do with her? what can i say to her?why does she lie to me? How could she do that? how could she know a new boy friend without telling me..... as the lyrics of this song:"How could you let somebody lay where i laid? how could you give him everthing that we made? how could you call him all the names that you used to call me? how could you just forget about me?" Yes this is a question, this is a bloody question, who can answer all the questions? HOW COULD YOU? HOW COULD YOU? HOW COULD YOU? my heart is blooding, my tear is drying. but i have accepted all about this, just like lyric said:"Girl I tried to give you everything, Can't believe the ways you repaid me, Girl you had it all, I guess my all wasn't good enough for you, i've accepted it and i aint gon trip." Truth is truth, nobody can change it even god. Could i forgive her and accept her if she would come back to me? No..No... i can't even handle myself, i might forgive her but will never accept her again.

If anyone got similar situation, i recommend to listen to this song, then you will feel the suffering ha.. here is the movie clip of the song:
my e-mail si daisyboo05@yahoo.comand aliceakacoute@aol.com.

im crying out for all the gals out there that have sufferd demestic violance like my self and hopefully we all find some1 that will love us for who we are and treat us with love and respect .it may be hard to leave but wen u finally do you will feel a whole lot better about your self ,every cloud has a sliver lining .even the most prettiest of things come from the most horrible and ugly places.love is not at the end of a fist,you may think that that person loves you but if they really did they wouldnt want to hurt u .

Im crying out desperately for my mother who has been in a relationship with this man who has took her through so much but she's still with him........She's been shot in the head by him and abused mentally and physically all the time.......We're wondering why she hasnt made him leave yet but I guess its fear........I love my mother dearly and I will kill for her......Thats why Im crying out for her to cry out to GOD to help her gain the strength to make him get out of her life. Thanx Mario, it felt good to get that all out.......

my heart is crying out to mario. since he has been out since 2000. i have liked him for a long time and i think that he is so special in every way. mario just doesnt know that watching his documentary had me in tears (for real) because we have so much in common with our mothers. i have delt with so much growing up because i have been put in a adult situation all of my life. i had always had to be the big sister even though i am the second to the last sister. i have 4 other siblings. one big brother (died at 31 from aids) two older sisters, one that is 24(currently in jail for murder since the age of 17.)another older sister that is 22(is mentally retarded) next is me. im 18 and last is my little sister which is 15 and doesnt have a clue about the real life(she loves to gang bang). my mother died in 2000 from aids. i always had to do everything for my two siblings (the mentally challenged one and the 15 year old one.) seeing mario's documentary made me think back to 2000 when i felt like everything and everybody were leaving me and i had nothing. i used my issues to make me stronger. i watched as mario was about to cry but he stayed strong and thats the most important thing to do. which is to stay strong because situations like that makes you stronger. i only pray that mario's mother stays clean and doesnt go back to her old habits because i didnt get the chance to see my mother go clean until she was laying on her death bed.
but i always pray because i know that god has a plan for me and also for mario too. thats why he made it in the music bussiness,not only because of his talents but because of god.
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escapelady

i am monique at 18 i became pregnant with my son. his names javen he is now 5 months and i am now 19. and i havent seen his father since i left him when i was 4 months pregnant. i left him, because i cant raise my son around a man who treats women bad. someone who talks to there mom like dirt. my sons never met him i feel a little bad, because they say every man needs his dad but i never had a dad me and my 2 brothers are doing just fine. my son dont need a bad influence in his life (his dad). i dont want him too see how his father treated and the things he's done to me because i am scared he'll think thats ok when he is older and its not.

"a man who is good to his mom is good to his woman, but a man who disrespects his mom will disrespect you too."

i finally understand the meaning behind it because i lived with a BOY who treated me exactly how he treated his mother and i was sick. i dont need my son growing up with that in his life i want him to always respect women no matter what and to never put hands on a lady unless she is physically harming him, even if she is what she is. he needs to be better then his father, because a real man respect women and wont put his hands on her no matter what she says, and even if his daddy dont im raising my son to do right! and thats why my heart crys out to my son.

P.S
ladies never stat witha man that will treat you bad and put hands on you especially in front of your child
no matter how much you love him, because he'll neve change esecially if he'll do it in fromt of your kids!

mommy loves you

heyyyyyyyy mario my name is Electoria, but everyone calls me toria/nisha. I'm 15-years old, i live in Savannah, GA and is a sophmore at jenkins high school. First off i like to address how i'm a big fan of yours sense u came out with just a friend, till let me luv u, till now, crying out for me. I luv yo music, yo voice, n personality. You are a great singer n i respect u for all u have, giving, n shared with are society (the whole world). and, just hoping one day i will finally get to meet u since i c all the time on television. I always knew u was a good person, gud friend, a gud listener, gud son to yo mother, n just a caring soul. Ever since i seen the documenatry about u n yo mother n wat u have been going through I couldnt help but cry 4 u i luv u even more because i have a better understanding of u . I can never say i have went through that but to be a 15 year old i have experience alot in this past year of 2007. On may da 1st i lost my older brother John 'Tony" Weldon, he was shot in da head n died later on that nite. I never understood y god took him away from us but u know wat they say never question da above one he has a reason 4 everything. One thing about my brother he was a very smart 22 year old he took care of us (electoria, alexis, angel,) n our mother. he was always there u know he never harmed or hurt anyone he was just the bestest brother/son/nephew u can ask 4. he was sweet, loving, caring, respectful, and he remind me a whole alot of u mario, he really does.

I miss him we all miss him n its hard, its so hard to lose a love one never thinking one day u would be experiencing something like this. U always see things on t.v, hear it on da radio, n probaly even seen it. You would never want to experience this something like this, it feels like a nightmare that wont awake you. I still dis day cant believe he's actually gone, just on a long lasting journey he just can't come home from. During the time of this tradegy my mother was 7 months pregnant with my little baby brother cameron (nugget wat we call him). And he's a fighter he survived this, he is now 4 months old. but my mother on da other hand she couldnt handle her self nor this situation but she got through it, but we all still have our moments n thats a part of life u know. On june da 27th nugget was born n he has just been our bundle of joy he makes me smile when im having a bad day, he makes me laugh when i just feel like breakin down he is so smart n sweet n i luv him to death. And 4 him 2 be 4 months he shoul know n learn from us alot. he's our little proud n joy It seems like everything is happening at one time. My great uncle frank died from cancer it tends to run in da family alot. Also my sister grandma i also called her mine she always been there when i was little. My ma like a month or two ago she was diagnose with breast cancer n it seems she has the worst kind i try to 4get about it but ever where i look i see sumthing about i cancer whether its on in da stores or bulltin boards its killing me to know my mother has this n i just hope she stay with us, she has so much to live 4 n i dnt want to lose my mother she all i have in life to me i mean my fathers there but its nothing like yo mother she always there til da end i luv her to death shes my heart n i know u can relate of what im going through , maybe i just wanted u to know u aint the only one in pain n hope because we all r . i luv u mario n this cuming from da heart. i hope u actually really read this i know its long but its my life u know . its just me. And i don't want you to just look at it and think i'm just a regular teenage or 15 year old with problems like at me as more than a student n 15 year old look at me as a person understand like i can with you n fell me. Your mother is all u have fight for her to let this addiction go help her. show her the reason for living to see u become da men u have become to c u go even further in yo music n acting skills to see u as more than these things but a person a true human beings with problems like regular people. i'm praying for yours pray 4 mine n we will justfight it together. LUV U MARIO

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Jae Taylor

Dear Mario, I hope you read your comments/blogs. I just watched your special for the 2nd time. First I would like to say that God is able. I commend your courage to tell you and your mothers story. It's takes courage and faith to step out and share a part of your life. People often think they know what you are going through and perhaps they do if they have ever had a family member, friend, or close friend addicted to a drugs.

I am from Baltimore. I know what it is like to see addiction ruin a person life. Often times we have to let them hit rock buttom, so the can fight to get back up. We often can be that cruch that contributes unknowly.

I encourage to always keep the love strong in her heart. They often feel like no one loves them, but know that that could have been you or me on the other end.

I won't trouble you long, keep the faith and remember God is real and He is able.

Mario,
It's very unusual for me to post to a blog, but i felt compelled to write this. My daughters are huge fans of yours however, initially i was not impressed by you. (smile) I thought, here we go, another Ne-Yo, Chris Brown or Omarion, but i must admit you have won me over as an artist and a young man with your song, Crying Out for me.
I saw your MTV special, about your life, i was so touched by the interaction between you and your mom, it tugged at my heart. Whenever i hear your song now, I think how your mom is truly crying out for you, for help, to save her. Her heart is crying out for you. I saw it in your eyes when you passed her that fifty to roll thru Bmore and get her hook up, i saw it in her body language as she reached out to get the money. Crying out. Truly. Stay encouraged young man. I applaud your courage to speak the truth by sharing your story.
Although your song is a love song, the dynamic between you and your mom is also about love.
I hope in time you are able to help her Mario, and i hope in time she can accept your help.
Keep your head up. I am pulling for you. Wishing you the best.

SomebodysMom

My dream is to one day be able to eat without it hurting me.

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Love, Francesca

I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A FAN OF YOURS BECAUSE YOU SING ABOUT REAL FEELINGS AND NOT JUST YOUR (PETER) FEELINGS. WATCHING YOU INTERACT WITH YOUR MOM WAS SO HEART TOUCHING. FOR A MINUTE I WAS WATCHING AND WISHED THAT SOMEONE CARED FOR ME LIKE YOU CARE FOR YOUR MOM. WHERE I'M FROM, GUYS DON'T ACT LIKE YOU. THEY ARE REAL DISRESPECTFUL. WATCHING YOU WITH YOUR MOM AND JUST TO SEE HOW MUCH MORE REAL YOU ARE NOT JUST AS A SINGER BUT AS A MAN MADE MY BODY TINGLE. YOU HAVE ALOT TO OFFER IN LIFE. I HOPE YOU STAY SINGLE FOREVER THOUGH. OR AT LEAST UNTIL I GET YOU. : )

i dont have n e more problemz then the next person so insteas of tryna get ur sympathy i just want u to kno dat u do make me stronger just thinkin bout the struggles i have to go through everyday n knoin dat u have problemz n ur life too makez me stronger i loved ur music since "just a friend 2000" i remember the first time i saw u sing it it was a nickalodeon preformance n u also sung "braid my hair" ever since then i been listenin to u i just cant wait to get ur new cd but every time i try to get it itz sold out but im gone cop dat soon i have to your song "how do i breath" makez me cry everytime i hear it i kno how it feelz to love some1 so much that when they r gone feelz like ur world is upside dwn n just nothin seems as good as it was before just keep up da good work n keep ur head up cuz at the end of every storm iz a rainbow
Jade AKA Msjade
(a cali type of female)

my heart is crying out to mario. since he has been out since 2000. i have liked him for a long time and i think that he is so special in every way. mario just doesnt know that watching his documentary had me in tears (for real) because we have so much in common with our mothers. i have delt with so much growing up because i have been put in a adult situation all of my life. i had always had to be the big sister even though i am the second to the last sister. i have 4 other siblings. one big brother (died at 31 from aids) two older sisters, one that is 24(currently in jail for murder since the age of 17.)another older sister that is 22(is mentally retarded) next is me. im 18 and last is my little sister which is 15 and doesnt have a clue about the real life(she loves to gang bang). my mother died in 2000 from aids. i always had to do everything for my two siblings (the mentally challenged one and the 15 year old one.) seeing mario's documentary made me think back to 2000 when i felt like everything and everybody were leaving me and i had nothing. i used my issues to make me stronger. i watched as mario was about to cry but he stayed strong and thats the most important thing to do. which is to stay strong because situations like that makes you stronger. i only pray that mario's mother stays clean and doesnt go back to her old habits because i didnt get the chance to see my mother go clean until she was laying on her death bed.

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escapelady

I’ve known this guy for a year and 4 months or so, and I’m so deeply in love with him. He knows but he doesn’t love me, he likes me a lot (I felt like my chest got stepped on when I heard that). When ever I see him my face lights up, I have this urge to scream at the top of my lungs till I’m outta air. I just get so happy but just a friend though and I’ve wanted him to be mines it’s just he doesn’t see me the way I see him, he doesn’t see how much he means to me. I spend all of my time with him, I’ve given him my all, he is my everything. In my eyes he’s a King and I deserve to be his Queen. I’m going away for college at Morgan State in Jan and he’s moving. We have a special connection…I know what he’s thinking, I know what he wants and I know what he needs. He drives me crazy sometimes I feel as though I need to be in a straight jacket. Now I feel like I’m just going to die…I love him so much. I WANT HIM TO SEE THAT IM ALL HE NEEDS! I’m willing to any and everything for him, No one will ever love him as much as I do. All I can do is cry, the love of my life is about to go and I can’t do anything to stop him. My heart is truly crying out for him. I am helplessly and hopelessly in love…I need help

THE ONLY MAN IN MY LIFE THAT MAKES ME FEEL SPECIAL
I'LL DO ANYTHING FOR HIM, IM HAPPY WITH HIM AND I DONT WANT HIM GOING NO WHERE. I RATHER BE WITH HIM THAN ANY OTHER MAN IN THIS WORLD. HE OWNS THE KEY TO MY HEART IF ONLY I CAN HAVE HIM LOVE ME BACK.

Him and my mom aren't together anymore but I still see him. I go to his house where he resides with my step mom and little sister. But we never really had the father daughter bond that I have always longed for. My daddy also never really did much for me and everybody is always asking why do I fool with him or why do I pay any attention to the things that he says. I guess its just because I want him to be a big part of my life. I want him to be able to accept me for who I am and stop comparing me to my older sister or my cousin. I want him to understand that I can only be Sherelle and that nobody is perfect. My whole way through high school everything I did was to make my father proud but alot of things just werent good enough for him. I can only recall my daddy being proud of me 1 time or atleast saying it and that was only when i won Homecoming Queen. I guess he wanted to be able to tell everyone that "yea, his daughter won". But there has been no more. Making A's n B's wasnt enough because my sister made all A's. So I attempted to go to the college that my sister went to. When I got accepted (GO GAMEc**kZ) that wasn't enough because my cousin was going to Duke. Everything that I was proud of myself for he never was. To this day my daddy still does nothing for me. He didnt help me buy anything for school. No books, no clothes, no nothing. My mom had to do it all on her own. When I asked him to help me get a car or atleast sign for one he said i didnt need one because my sister and my cousin didnt take or need theirs at school. So I had to go out and get one on my own. Busting my butt while trying to maintiain descent grades so that he won't have a reason to talk bad about me. But he is still my daddy and I love him to death it just feels like i've been crying out for his acceptance too long. Im starting to wonder whether or not he is good enough for me to accept anymore.
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CAROLINA GIRLZ R THE BEST N THE WORLD
GO GAMEc**kZ!!!!!!!

The thing I have to say that my heart is crying out for most is, my dreams. As selfish as that might sound, I really don't mean to come across that way. I have always been a girl who dreams big. I have always wanted the best in life and deep inside I know that I have the talent to do it, but past situations have caused me to stop striving for what I want. Whenever I tell a family member that I want to be a famous singer, they always negative words to say. They always say, "girl you are too shy," or "you need to get some real goals." I have never had a day where my family has just told me, "Je'Nae, you can do it!" Doubting yourself, is already hard enough, but when you have others doubt you, it becomes even harder. That is why my heart crys out for my dreams. My heart is reaching for them, but my head won't let me have them. Maybe it is a good thing that my heart is crying out though, because then maybe someone will hear it, save me, and support me. All I need is some encouraging words...without the if's, and's, or but's that my family throws in behind them. It will be ok though, the tears that my heart cries are nothing but water...and water causes growth!

Even though its been years since I've seen him, I still have strong feelings for him. In AIT we had a strong bond. I think I've been living in the past because it has been 2 1/2 years and I still miss him. I spoke to him a few months back and we both wish we were alot closer to each other. He's in WA and I'm in TX. We used to go out of our way to be together. There were times when I would sneak out of my barracks room to be with him in the middle of the night. We would just sit around and talk but that was all needed. I was in love with him. He's a great person and one day we might cross paths again... Maybe even intentionally.

Mario, I saw the documentary about you mother, i cried through most of it. Not just because it was sad, but because i went through the same stuff you went through and we both are still dealing with it. I am 17 and this is my senior year and i have seen my mother once in this year. it was on my birthday (she only stayed for an hour or so, but i loved it). i could never be alone because i always had my grandmother and my little brother. i was hard going through these years. My grandmother would always tell me that i am not alone, their are other kids like me, but i did not want to hear that. since i seen the documentary i have wanted to talk to you (it most likely wont happen,but i hope it will).

F. Denique

My name is carline from asbury park, nj my heart is crying out for mario dewar barrett.There is a lot about you that draw my attention and as the year passing by that feeling inside me keep growing and getting stronger and deeper.With every passing moments thought of you run through my head , i even dream about you more than once sometimes i feel like my heart will over flow could i be fallin for you cause i get rush when i think of you , lose control from my body and soul there is so much i wanna say but who do i tell when i love someone.If you could see the way i cry at night ,if you could hear me when i call out you name , if you could understand the reasons why my heart is crying out for you.I tried hard to hide it inside but what am i supposed to do when i know deep inside all that im feeling is because of you and I wonder how can i win your heart or i dont have too. My heart beat so fast everytime i see you ,you put a move on my heart everytime i hear your voice.There is so much i wanna know about you: like what please you and not sometimes i wonder where you are, what could you been doing i wanna know your pain ,your joy and your fear i hope im not asking you for too much other than the opprtunity to get to know you personally.

Hello Mario, i know alot of people have written you and cried their hearts out 2u, but I`m really crying out for you because I know what its like to have a mother who`s on drugs, but you can never give up hope and like you said in your song, you have got to fight for her, like I did my mom. Remember Mario that a rainbow always shines so beautiful in the sky after a storm
Much luv~ and God Bless ya
From ya #1
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Sabrina

I HEART IS CRYING OUT FOR HIM BECAUSE HE HAS GONE THROUGH ALOT OF THINGS IN HIS LIFE. AND THEN I CAME ALONG. I HAVE MADE HIM FEEL LIKE A WONDERFUL PERSON AND MADE HIS LIFE BECOME GOOD. HE TELLS ME EVERY DAY ON HOW MUCH HE IS GLAD THAT IM IN HIS LIFE. WELL I HOPE THAT THIS TOUCHES YOU.

ANOTHER THING. MARIO IM SORRY FOR WHAT YOUR GOIN THROUGH WITH YOUR MOTHER. I HOPE THINGS CHANGE FOR THE BETTER IN YOUR LIFE. LOVE YA.

i KNOW HOW iT FEELS TO HAVE SOME ONE YOU LOVE AND THAT YOUR REAL CLOSE TO BE iN A SiTUATiON THAT MAY END THEiR LiFE AT ANYTiME. i HAVE AN AUNT ON MY DAD'S SiDE OF THE FAM WHO iS ADDiCTED TO DRUGS/ALCOHOL. SHE iS MY FAVORiTE AUNT WHO i LOVE SO MUCH AND WOULD HATE TO LOSE HER TO SOMETHiNG LiKE THiS. WE MAY HAVE HAD OUR UPS AND DOWNS BUT THAT DON'T MAKE ME CHANGE HOW i FEEL ABOUT HER. iTS CRAZY HOW MY AUNT WOULD STAY OUT ALL NiGHT LOOKiNG FOR SOMEONE WHO SHE CAN BUY DRUGS FROM AND SLEEP iN ALL DAY THE NEXT MORNiNG AND BE UP TO GO OUT ON HER JOURNEY AGAiN. iT KiLLS ME TO SEE HER THE WAY SHE iS. i WOULD HATE FOR HER TO BE GONE LiKE THiS. iT HURTS ME iNSiDE WHEN i THiNK ABOUT THE THiNGS SHE DOES TO HERSELF. iTS HEARTBREAKiNG TO SEE SOMEONE FALL OUT SO EASY AND JUST GiVE UP ON LiFE. MY AUNT WOULD ALWAYS ASK ME FOR MONEY AND i WOULD GiVE iT TO HER AND i NEVER KNEW WHY SHE NEEDED iT UNTiL i FOUND OUT WHAT SHE NEEDED iT FOR. MANY NiGHTS i WOULD GO OUTSiDE AND SEE HER SiTTiNG THERE WiTH PEOPLE SHE CALL HER FRiENDS. THEY WOULD BE DRiNKiNG AND SMOKiNG THEiR LIFE AWAY.PEOPLE MAKE MANY MiSTAKES iN LiFE AND iNSTEAD OF MAKiNG THE RiGHT CHOiCE'S THEY CHOOSE NOT TO DO RiGHT. MY AUNT iS ALWAYS iN AND OUT OF THE HOSPiTAL LiKE THATS HER OTHER HOME BUT iTS NOT. i ONLY GET TO SEE MY AUNT TWiCE OUT THE WHOLE YEAR SUMMER AND CHRiSTMAS. THE LAST TiME SHE WAS iN THE HOSPiTAL WHiCH WAS A WEEK AGO THE DOCTOR TOLD MY AUNT THAT iF SHE WANTS TO LiVE THEN SHE NEEDS TO STOP DRiNKiNG AND SMOKiNG i DON'T KNOW
iF SHE WiLL BE ABLE TO DO THAT. MY AUNT ALREADY HAS SiCKLE CELL i CAN'T DEAL WiTH THE FACT OF LOSiNG HER. i PRAY TO GOD THAT NOTHiNG HAPPENS TO MY AUNT. i'VE SEEN MY AUNT GO THROUGH SO MUCH iN THE PAST i THOUGHT NOTHiNG LiKE THiS WOULD EVER HAPPEN TO ANYBODY iN MY FAMiLY. i WiSH i KNEW HOW TO HELP HER BUT YOU CAN'T HELP ANYONE THAT DOESN'T WANT THE HELP. WHEN i SAW THE DOCUMENTARY ABOUT YOUR MOTHER i WAS A LiTTLE SAD AND iT MADE ME CRY BECAUSE i KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. iTS SO HARD TO LOSE THE ONE YOU LOVE TO FiNALLY HAVE TO SAY GOODBYE AND YOU TRY TO BE STRONG BUT THE PAiN KEEPS HOLDiNG ON AND ALL THAT YOU COULD DO IS CRY BUT DEEP WiTHiN YOUR HEART ALL YOU CAN DO iS CRY WHEN SHE'S GONE LiFE KEEPS MOViNG ON AND i DONT THiNK i COULD MOVE ON WiTHOUT HER BECAUSE SHE'S MY FAVORiTE AUNT AND SHE WOULD DO ANYTHiNG FOR ME AND iTS SAD JUST WRiTiNG THiS AND THiNKiNG ABOUT THE FACT THAT SHE MAY OR MAY NOT LiVE ANY LONGER. i HOPE THAT WHO EVER iS
READiNG THiS FEEL MY PAiN. THiS iS A TRUE STORY iTS NOT MADE UP JUST TO LET YALL KNOW AND i TRULY DO HOPE i WiN THiS CONTEST.
~KAYLA SiMMONS~

In all honesty, my heart is crying out for you Mario. Personally, I haven't experienced a parent being "dependent" shall I say. But My oldest brother's mom was at one point in her life. My brother and I are half bro/sis and we share the same dad. Unfortunately our father has been absent for the majority of our lives. Just a few years ago he "resurfaced" shall I say and decided to bond and/or build a relationship with us. With my brother's mom "dependent" for a while, not to mention unstable, and no male figure there to guide him, he looked for love and guidance in the streets. My brother and I are a year apart. When I moved from NY to Charlotte things really began to hit the fan b/c he felt as though he had no one there with him. Long story short, In March (2007) my oldest and only brother was murdered at age 19!!

My heart aches everyday to know that I no longer can just pick of the phone to call or fly back home to visit my brother. It hurts even more so to know that his death could have been prevented only if someone was there to give him the love and affection that every human is entitled to.

I'm saying this to say, as probably your biggest fan; My prayers are with you and I don't want you to ever feel as though you are alone in anything! Males handle things a bit differently than females tend to (ex. my brother.) But know that even if you feel as though there is no one on the face of this earth that understands your pain or that you feel comfortable enough to discuss your pain with, know that you have a friend in your lord and savior Jesus Christ. You can always find love and guidance in Him. Take your burdens to the lord and leave them there!! ...In addition you will always have me!! hahaha. (Just thought i'd brighten up the text.) =)

Thanks for being true and as I said earlier...My heart is Crying out for You!!

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Monique
aka
Diamond N Tha Roc
www.myspace.com/diamond_n_tha_roc

my heart is cryin out for my grandmother, i was grown up by her for almost all my life....she's my rock, my heart an my everything....jus like u my mother wasnt in my life a lot......now that my grandmother is gone i miss her alot.....everytime i do something good i think to my self that she's lookin down on me an smiling....she' my reason for living....sometimes i jus think to my self y god had to take her away from me so soon....but people always tell me there's a reason y god took her from me...i havnt seen the reason yet, but maybe later on in life i will....now thats she's gone i kno live wid my farther....he always been in my life but my granmother was always by my side....she taught me right from wrong......an i miss her for all the good things she taught me an all the good things she done....sometimes i cry myself to sleep thinking of her....but i kno deep down in my tears that ill see her some day...an i tell myself to stay strong for her cause she wouldnt want to see me like this....i love her with all my heart an some day ill see her again.....missin her dearly.

P.S. To u mario stay strong u an ur mother will get through this...an everytime u fell depresed jus think about ur grandmother an how she would feel to see u depressed....Love U

LOVE :Kimona