I've been sitting here for days just trynna come up with different solutions to my life and why things take the turn they do, I sit and wonder why its soooo damn hard for me to be happy again....I am such a loving and caring person, never steer anyone the wrong way far from phoney and loves to just spend time at home lay back and do me, not all into that night scene in knowing sometimes its fun its not alway for me...I am hurting in da inside and dont know why, guess because after having my son and going through all the ups and downs with the donor of my child and after all that now being over and done with I am now wanting to just be in a real relationship again I want to have that friendship that love that bound between two that cant be broken.....here I am getting ready to be 22 and my life has been through so much its nuts, I joined this web-site because I see da care in marios eyes when it comes to him and his mother and he is a talented person and im like why cant i meet a loving and caring man like him or something....idk s*** crazy life is crazy i just wish things would get better for me................................