Wednesday, March 12, 2008 - 04:42
I just had this thought..
It just dawned on me again how precious life really is.. oftentimes people can tend to take life, as beautiful and precious as it is for granted in a way.. maybe not intentionally, maybe intentionally.. who knows?? but I had a vibration and it went thru me like a breeze. it was gentle, but it brought me to think about how today I dealt with so many senior citizens and they are all so beautiful even in their scared, insecure mental states and yet they are so fragile and delicate. I talked with a lady in Granny's building for almost an hour and there was so much love, knowledge, insight, wisdom, history, fear, hope and hopelessness,, but after we concluded our conversation, she felt that there was a reason for her to continue living and it was me.. I told her that I needed her bcuz I'm often so very often faced with makin major decisions that will affect my whole family's lives; they depend on me, they don't often appreciate me, hardly ever and I'm sure never will but the 95 year old lady made me feel that it was ok, it's alright to not always be accepted or appreciated. it's like I could hear her sayin what I would love to hear granny and the rest of my family say (I know they never will) but I would love for them to say that they know I did my best and even if my best was never good enough for anyone else, it was good enough for them..
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Ah don't feel sad at all dear lady because I know it's hard when you feel so unappreciated but that's how life can be and society is rough sometimes on gentle spirits but you have to remember like you always told us don't be so hard on yourself. You know you're a good person. You're a queen and I love you!
have a blessed day and keep smiling (: (:
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*~*:::Joiya:::*~* a lover, not a hater
There is only one way for a man
like you to love a woman like me,
and that is the right way.
:::Joiya:::
hey Tash, that's right. I'm feelin better about it now. I just felt so much pain in my heart bcuz I had been taken for granted for so long and they played me out. they played on my emotions and my mind. it's very painful; it cuts like a knife in the heart when people you love and give up your life for (meaning give up your life dreams and put your own needs and desire aside to assist them first) play you out and show their appreciation to you by lyin to ya, playin on your emotions and intelligence etc. and then turn around and need your help desperately.. well, that's what I was dealin with and I'm goin thru my own little way of therapy for help with my scarred emotions and broken heart.
Mario is up next on the tube yo .. I'm all excited again,, bbl LOL
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Lovin you is easy cuz you're beautiful (Thank You Miss Minnie)
that is so true Joiy, we got to be thankful for everything . that's why I was tellin the girl from C1 to just like leave it alone don't go killin herself over that dude if he tryna stress her out. he keeps tellin her he love her he loves her.. blah blah blah, yada yada yada and he wants to be with her but he wants to keep her as his little secret. that's all fine and dandy if she wanna be his secret but he should do what he says he gonna do for her and not keep her danglin, hoping they are gonna be together and lettin all them nosey triflin folks butt in their b.i. and change up his plans for her. I can't even fathom no b.s. like dat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will never understand how a couple as strong like they are into each other would let other folks dictate their love for each other and they've been feelin one another so long, but you see that's how the enemy fools lovers .. uh ohh
and I told her be thankful she can breathe and live her life bcuz he ain't the only man on earth. it's a whole sea of them out there ;)
but then again I thot about it and it's like there could be a sea full of men but it ain't him. I guess she really in love then..,idk, I'm just sayin lol
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Better yet, go and get up, I ain't gon'tell you again
Why don't you stand over me and let me see what it is?
And maybe my tastin' with your rotation
Will show you why I couldn't wait to get to the crib
Damn you feel so good to me
I figured I should (chill right theere)
And another thing ChoklaitSexy is this: You know how you and BJ always used to tell me to be grateful for every breath I take? It sounded like Mario was saying something like that to me, maybe not the exact words, but in essence, he was saying what you guys always say! Be thankful you can breathe, ok?! (;
Luv ya,
~*Joiya*~
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*~*:::Joiya:::*~* aka Peaches~lover, not hater
There is only one way for a man
like you to love a woman like me,
and that is the right way.
:::Joiya:::
Miss Chocolate, do like Mario and keep it ghetto. You know your boy was at the club, boys and girls club yesterday in the hood, launching his Do Right foundation! Chin up homegirl (:
Luv,
~~~**Joiya**~~~
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*~*:::Joiya:::*~* a lover, not a hater
There is only one way for a man
like you to love a woman like me,
and that is the right way.
:::Joiya:::
Choklait, I think you said it in a previous post that you want your family to appreciate you or something like that. I recall you saying something like that... I understand. You want them to appreciate your giving of yourself to them, i.e. your time, your energy, your caregiving, etc. but it's not always easy for family to recognize what we do for them. Sometimes it seems like they think we are obligated to take care of them, especially if you have a nurturing nature, as I'm sure you have. But don't be discouraged Choklait because you are appreciated, so keep on being the beautiful, giving, humorus lady you are... keep your shine Chok and keep it str8 ghetto (LOL)
I have to tell you about a lady here who have a teenage daughter, beautiful girl, intelligent, scholarly and spoiled... so this lady is starting to feel unappreciated also, but I suggested she stop spoiling her daughter and that'll get her attention and put her back on track. (lol)
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.:The Power of LOVE is BiGGeR than BoTh of US:.
Miss E i don't believe it's EVER to late for anything..if you really want it go for it..but as for how to be a nurse Tash would be of more help than me...i'm not a nurse but The facilities Medical Supply Coordinator...
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"All the women who are independent
Throw your hands up at me"
....Destiny's Child.....
Oh my gosh Kerri, u almost make me believe I can accomplish it. I'll be 23 later this year, isnt it a bit too late to start? Am confused. I really wanna do this but I have no one to get advise from, and it does not help when u go to guidance counsellors, they just tell u what u want to hear. Any advice u can give me Kerri? Tash?
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Listening to "Braid My Hair" and Loving Mario some more!
Nursing homes need nurses soooooooooooo badly it's not even funny..and it takes it alot to be one and i don't just mean money..depends on where you go you have to have the stomach , the nerve, the compassion, Patience, and Patience...then some more Patience cause theses people are confused and mad as hell that they aren't in their own homes ,so you have to have understanding also..put yourself in their shoes..and i commend Tash for going this route cause it is NOT EASY...sometimes the best nursing care you can give someone is to sit with them as they die...compassion along with medical knowledge is what makes a great nurse....
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"All the women who are independent
Throw your hands up at me"
....Destiny's Child.....
I have actually considered nursing, but just never got round to it, I know its challenging and demanding, but it is an expensive profession to study.
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Listening to "Braid My Hair" and Loving Mario some more!
Tash the parenting thing happens after the child is born...while i was pregnant i was so scared...what if i mess up? you know...i took one look at my son when he was born then looked at my mom and said.."now what?"..lol..you figure it out along the way...the thing i did with my son i won't do with the others..i was a CRAZY new mommy..lol...drove his doctor NUTS..lol..i called her EVERYDAY, no lie, but you see you learn along the way what to do and what not to do so i wouldn't worry about that Tash...it didn't hit me that i was someone's mother until 2 months after having my son...for me parenting was something i had to learn...
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"All the women who are independent
Throw your hands up at me"
....Destiny's Child.....
Yup so true kerry.... I think the hardest and most stressful job ever is being a parent.. You have a whole new life to protect and guide... That's a lot of pressure.. I guess the parenting skills come with time.. For most ppl.. Because right now idk if I have that skill...
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Exhale Madness N Hale Music...... Is The Motto I Live By..... Tash
i work in a nursing home so i get to talk to the elderly everyday and i call them the forgotten ones...people don't realize how special theses people really are..they're the recorders of history and they make you realize how great life can be and how lucky we are to live it..what you think is hard isn't nearly as hard as some of the stuff they had to endure..so i tend to appreciate life a little more after a conversation with them..and i agree with Tash families don't always know how to say thanks or tell you you're doing a good job...the most thankless job i know is being a parent but just because they don't say thanks doesn't mean they don't mean it or need you...
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"All the women who are independent
Throw your hands up at me"
....Destiny's Child.....
Very well said.... Its sometimes hard for some families 2 express how they feel... Some adults like 2 maintain a strong image and don't like 2 show their emotional side... You just have to believe in what you are doing.. And kno that your family is happy and appreaciative.. But can't express it as easily as u are I may.. And I too love talking to elder ppl... Some have survived somethings.. I can't even imagine having 2 deal with...
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Exhale Madness N Hale Music...... Is The Motto I Live By..... Tash