Hey Mario, I want to say sorry for everything your going through and I have nothing but respect for you because you seem like such a strong person. I am a high school student and my heart is crying out for life. I know that may seem wild but its not how it sounds. I live wit my mother, 2 brothers, and 2 sisters. My father past away and it was really hard for me to except that because he was the air I breath. My mother got with a man from jail and he beat her really bad so now he is back in jail. We lost are house after my father died and now we live under a crack house on the east side (the hood). Now my mother turns to alchohal to hide the painful emotion she is feeling. I couldn't take the pressure so I moved in wit a friend. 2 months later my mother wanted me back home and threatend me with the cops to come home. Sometimes I feel so lost because going through all this is crazy and I feel like I cant handel it, but I look at people like you, and I realized that it's possible, but im asking for your help and your word of advice. This is what my heart is crying out for.